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  • You made me believe
    That nobody else could love me
    But you
    Then I found me
    And a couple of old cd’s

    You were drinking my blood
    Right under my nose the whole time
    Until I was empty

    I thought I could save you
    But you punished me for trying
    And I was the one who needed saving

    Addicted to the remedy
    You gave for the pain you caused me
    I couldn’t look myself in the mirror cos I was scared of what I’d find
    It was Someone else
    Cos I lost myself
    In a killers arms
    In march
  • Livin my life in a bubble
    Sometimes reality’s too much for me
    (Trip and fall into a dream)
    Your love it gets me to trouble
    Sometimes the gravity’s too much for me
    (It gets me weak in the knees)

    I
    Don’t know what we got But
    I know what I want
    The silence is killing me softly

    You and I
    We just glide
    Through the night We just drive
    We get by We just glide
    Maybe we’re just fooling in foolish imagination Got no destination in sight
    You and I We get by We just glide

    Why should it be such a struggle
    When it means so much to you and me
    (Trip and fall into a dream)
    Built like a ship in a bottle
    Gotta handle you so delicately

    I
    Don’t know what we got
    But I know what I want
    The silence is killing me softly

    You and I
    We just glide
    Through the night
    We just drive
    We get by
    We just glide
    Maybe we’re just fooling in foolish imagination
    Got no destination in sight
    You and I

    We get by
    We just glide

    Show me freedom
    Coz love don’t cost a thing
    Give me freedom
    Yeah don’t just let me leave
    You and I
    We just glide
    Through the night
    We just drive
    We get by
    We just glide
    Maybe we’re just fooling in foolish imagination
    Got no destination in sight
    You and I
    We get by
    We just glide
  • Good hellos and bad goodbyes
    We do it well
    We do it well
    I see you through Cloudy eyes
    Heaven or hell
    Well Who could tell

    Cigarettes and the taste of cheap wine
    Waking up in a daze it’s your bed or mine
    Always my favorite waste of time

    All in for the thrill of it
    Til we're ill of it

    Darling you
    Love me love me sideways
    Drifting in and out of
    My space
    These day

    Is it cruel
    To hold you hold you so tight
    When our forever only
    Lasts us
    Some nights

    Raging nights in mid July
    Thought it would end
    But you’re back again
    With lips ice cold and more to hide
    I let you in
    We keep play pretend

    Cigarettes and the taste of cheap wine
    Waking up in a daze it’s your bed or mine
    Always my favorite waste of time

    All in for the thrill of it
    Til we’re ill of it

    Darling you
    Love me love me sideways
    Drifting in and out of
    My space
    These days

    Is it cruel
    To hold you hold you so tight
    When our forever only
    Lasts us
    Some nights

    How can I be here with you
    And not know where we are
    Talk about where we wanna go
    But never get that far

    All in for thrill of it
    Til we’re ill of it

    Darling you
    Love me love me sideways
    Drifting in and out of
    My space
    These days

    Is it cruel
    To hold you hold you
    So tight
    When our forever only
    Lasts us
    Some nights
  • We’ve been more than friends
    And It’s unstable
    Yeah We got a past
    I know
    yeah I know the odds
    Aren’t in our favor
    But when we laugh
    It’s gold

    Babe I’m the fire
    You are the air
    How can I burn
    When you’re not there

    We’ve been more than friends
    And it’s unstable
    unstable…

    I know we should probably see other people
    But you’re not like other people
    You told me you know me more than other people
    Said I’m not like other people
    That’s why I like you
    And that’s why you like me
    Old habits they never die
    I know we should probably see other people
    But we’re not like other people, are we?

    Somebody else
    Looks good on paper
    Good for my health
    I know
    But what the heart wants
    You can’t control it
    control it...

    Cos babe we’re on fire
    Fighting for air
    You know desire
    doesn’t fight fair

    I know we should probably see other people
    But you’re not like other people
    You told me you know me more than other people
    Said I’m not like other people

    That’s why I like you
    And that’s why you like me
    Old habits they never die
    I know we should probably see other people
    But we’re not like other people, are we?
    Not like other people, are we?
    And I don’t like other people, no no
    You’re not like other people, oh no

    The odds
    Aren’t in our favor
    But when we laugh
    It’s gold

    I know we should probably see other people
    But you’re not like other people
    You told me you know me more than other people
    Said I’m not like other people
    That’s why I like you
    And that’s why you like me
    Old habits they never die
    I know we should probably see other people
    But we’re not like other people, are we?
    Not like other people, are we?
    We’re not like other people, oh no
  • Lean back
    And close my eyes
    Been living in a bubble as long as I remember
    Lean back
    And it’s alright
    I always knew that I’m a good pretender

    Love it in my fantasy reality
    And I don’t wanna know it
    wanna know it
    wanna know it
    Til it hits like a hammer
    Hits like a hammer
    Built my own multi universe
    Parallel truth
    Where I’m safe from the world
    Just never from you
    People outside are flying to the moon
    and I’m laying in my bed like I don’t have a clue

    So I
    Push it away
    Push it away
    I push it away
    Push it away

    Til it hits like a hammer
    Truth
    Hits like a hammer
    Truth
    Til it hits like a hammer
    Truth
    Hits like a hammer
    Truth
    Til it hits like a hammer

    Sometimes
    We overdose
    And I think that you’re a stranger
    Need you
    But not too close
    Feels like I’m looking in the mirror

    Love it in my fantasy reality
    And I don’t wanna know it
    wanna know it
    wanna know it
    Til it hits like a hammer
    Hits like a hammer
    Built my own multi universe
    Parallel truth
    Where I’m safe from the world
    Just never from you
    People outside are flying to the moon
    and I’m laying in my bed like I don’t have a clue

    So I
    Push it away
    Push it away
    I push it away
    Push it away

    Til it hits like a hammer
    Truth
    Hits like a hammer
    Truth
    Til it hits like a hammer
    Truth
    Hits like a hammer
    Truth
    Til it hits like a hammer

    Lean back and close my eyes
    Been living in a bubble as long as I remember
    Lean back and it’s alright
    I always knew that I’m a good pretender
  • Oh boy, oh boy
    I think I made a mistake
    And I think you made a mistake

    Oh boy, oh boy
    I’m reaching for things I could break
    Can someone hand me a vase

    Oh boy, oh boy
    You still didn’t give back the keys
    I’m sitting here on my knees
    staring at the door
    looking for a cure
    Reaching for something to drink

    With you
    I would know exactly what to do
    But you’re somewhere else
    so all I’m gonna do is not know what to do

    Who you gonna love if you’re not gonna love me
    Who, who, who?
    Who you gonna love if you’re not gonna love me
    Who?

    Oh boy, oh boy
    I think we did the right thing
    You think we did the right thing, right?

    Oh boy, oh boy
    I love to have all this time
    But what do I do with this time

    With you
    I would know exactly what to do
    But you’re somewhere else
    so all I’m gonna do is not know what to do

    Who you gonna love if you’re not gonna love me
    Who, who, who?
    Who you gonna love if you’re not gonna love me
    Who?
    Whom I gonna love if I’m not gonna love you
    Who, who, who?
    Whom I gonna love if I’m not gonna love you

    I know, I know
    You should give back the keys
    I shouldn’t sit here on my knees
    Staring at the door
    Looking for a cure

    Who you gonna love if you’re not gonna love me
    Who, who, who?
    Who you gonna love if you’re not gonna love me
    Who?
    Whom I gonna love if I’m not gonna love you
    Who, who, who?
    Whom I gonna love if I’m not gonna love you
  • Someone told you that big boys don't cry
    But you're drowning in that ocean deep inside
    We find solid ground
    and the land begins to slide

    Are we too scared to be happy?
    Happy always ended sad

    Is it love or sabotage
    We push and pull each other
    Twisting who we are
    Throwing gasoline onto the fire
    All the sparks raining down
    Our desire's
    Sabotage
    Sabotage

    I was always told to speak my mind
    (my mind)
    The words can come out wrong and seem unkind
    (unkind)
    But we take the truth and turn it into lies

    Are we too scared to be happy?
    Happy always ended sad

    Is it love or sabotage
    We push and pull each other
    Twisting who we are
    Throwing gasoline onto the fire
    All the sparks raining down
    Our desire's
    Sabotage
    Sabotage

    Oooh
    Oooh
    Draw the blinds and lay our troubles down
    Hold me tight don't say a word
    Don't you say it's too late
    Say it’s too late, say it
    Don’t say it’s too late
    Say it’s too late, say it

    Don’t say it’s too late
    Say it’s too late, say it
    Don't say it's too late

    Is it love or sabotage
    We push and pull each other
    Twisting who we are
    Throwing gasoline onto the fire
    All the sparks raining down
    Our desire's
    Sabotage
    Sabotage
  • I made a stage for you to dance on
    I paved a way for you to walk
    I gave a life for you to live in
    and there was nothing left for me at all

    I made a home to put your heart in
    I made a song for you to sing
    I gave it all
    and you used it
    there was nothing left for me no more

    I need a way out
    I need a way out
    I need a way out
    I need a way out

    Still see you standing in the corner
    I couldn’t move, I couldn’t talk
    Cos I was tired of the hurting
    and there was nothing left of me at all

    Was it love or was it hatred
    I was numb, too blind to see
    I lived a lie and worshipped sadness
    But I’m still the girl I used to be

    I need a way out
    I need a way out
    I need a way out
    I need a way out
  • Dancing with your shadow, shadow
    Talking to your echo, echo
    I don’t wanna let go, let go
    Maybe I’m just haunted by your ghost
    Coz all of my words turn to ash in my mouth
    When I’m talking to your echo, echo
    But I don’t wanna let go, let go

    Gotta be,
    Careful what I dream of
    Careful what I wish for
    Careful in my sleep
    Careful what I dream of, might not wanna wake up
    Careful what I dream of
    Careful not to need you
    Careful in my sleep
    Careful what I dream, I might not wanna wake up

    Sharper than a dagger, dagger
    Our love was a hazard, hazard
    But I’d rather have you, have you
    In my dreams than not at all
    All of the words that come out of your mouth
    Are sharper than a dagger, dagger

    Gotta be,
    Careful what I dream of
    Careful what I wish for
    Careful in my sleep
    Careful what I dream of, might not wanna wake up
    Careful what I dream of
    Careful not to need you
    Careful in my sleep
    Careful what I dream of, might not wanna wake up
    (Careful what I dream, I might not wanna wake up)

    Even when I
    Can’t see your face
    I can feel your hands
    Around my waist
    Every night
    It’s the same old scene
    but when the morning comes
    You’re never here with me

    Gotta be,
    Careful what I dream of
    Careful what I wish for
    Careful in my sleep
    Careful what I dream of, might not wanna wake up
    Careful what I dream of
    Careful not to need you
    Careful in my sleep
    Careful what I dream of, might not wanna wake up

    (Careful what I dream, I might not wanna wake up)

    Dancing with your shadow, shadow
    Talking to your echo, echo
    I don’t wanna let go, let go
  • You got it worse than you've ever really had it
    It's ok's just a
    Bad habit
    Bright lights like a frightened little rabbit
    It's ok's just a
    Bad habit

    Aah
    aah
    Mmah

    Come the hour
    You know
    You'll need it again
    And again
    Knocking the door in the back of your brain
    It begins
    And never ends

    Keeps on hurting
    Like a faith to the death
    Just don't give into it yet

    You got it worse than you've ever really had it
    It's ok's just a
    Bad habit
    Bright lights like a frightened little rabbit
    It's ok's just a
    Bad habit

    Aah
    aah
    Mmah

    Shivering and shaking
    You know you'll take it again
    And again
    Feel a little bittersweet
    Creeping up your spine
    It explodes
    Now and then

    Keeps on hurting
    Like a faith to the death
    Just don't give into it yet

    You got it worse than you've ever really had it
    It's ok's just a
    Bad habit
    Bright lights like a frightened little rabbit
    It's ok's just a
    Bad habit

    (Aah aah aah aah aah aah)

    You got it worse than you've ever really had it
    It's ok's just a
    Bad habit
    Bright lights like a frightened little rabbit
    It's ok's just a
    Bad habit
  • Tryna fly
    But my wings can’t hold me up
    Tryna run
    But my legs are glued to the ground
    Wanna breathe
    But I keep
    Drowning in this quicksand
    You all know this dream

    Let me just keep
    Dreaming, dreaming
    For now, for now
    Let me just keep
    Dreaming, dreaming
    For now, for now

    I don’t wanna wake up til it’s over
    I’m still in the middle of the fall
    I don’t wanna wake up til it’s over
    Not til i hit
    Not til i hit
    Not til i hit
    Solid ground
    Solid ground
    Solid ground

    I’m in the sea
    Swimming underneath the ice
    Feeling warm
    Feeling safe where there’s no light
    Wanna see
    Everything
    That’s hiding at rockbottom
    Wanna stay in this nightmare a little bit longer

    Let me just keep
    Dreaming, dreaming
    For now, for now
    Let me just keep
    Dreaming, dreaming
    For now, for now

    I don’t wanna wake up til it’s over
    I’m still in the middle of the fall
    I don’t wanna wake up til it’s over
    Not til i hit
    Not til i hit
    Not til i hit
    Solid ground
    Solid ground
    Solid ground

    I don’t wanna wake up til it’s over
    I’m still in the middle of the fall
    I don’t wanna wake up til it’s over
    Not til i hit
    Not til i hit
    Not til i hit

    I don’t wanna wake up til it’s over
    I’m still in the middle of the fall
    I don’t wanna wake up til it’s over
    Not til i hit
    Not til i hit
    Not til i hit
    Solid ground
    Solid ground
    Solid ground
  • I know the birds fly north
    Lay me, lay me down
    In the river, I go
    I know it’s hard to forget it all
    But please, don’t you don’t you leave
    You’re the one for me

    I believe
    I believe
    That there’s a reason for this

    I know the water’s running out
    Just let me, let me try
    To save some
    I know we’re tired, almost numb
    But baby, we can try
    Til the queendom come

    Yeah I believe
    I believe
    That there’s a reason for this

    We planted our own seed
    Some day it becomes
    Forever our tree
    Just wait for it, listen
    You’ll see
    Our love, our love it grows
    Like You and me

    I believe
    I believe
    That there’s reason for this
    I believe
    I believe
    That there’s a reason for this
    I believe
    I believe
    That there’s reason for it all

    I know the birds fly north
    Lay me, lay me down
    In the river, I go
    One kiss makes me forget it all
    So don’t you, don’t you leave
    You’re the one for me

    I believe
    I believe
    That there’s a reason for this
    I believe
    I believe
    That there’s a reason for this
  • Still recall the feeling
    Was so scared to see you leaving
    Didn’t notice that you needed to
    All the late night fighting
    Then the both of us were crying
    Guess we lost ourselves in me and you

    I don’t want you to remember me that way
    I don’t want you to remember I begged you to stay
    Just needed a little time
    To get you off my mind
    And now I’m finally in a better place

    If you could see me now
    that my heart is blooming
    That I got out
    And I don’t wanna don’t lose this
    Now if I saw you in the crowd
    I wouldn’t run into your arms
    I wouldn’t reminisce ’bout us
    and ’bout the better days
    If you could see me now
    More than just ok

    Stop myself from calling
    All the times that I’ve been longing
    Just to talk to you like nothing’s changed
    We were better off as friends
    So can you let me love again?
    We don’t need to wait out the haze

    I just want you to remember me this way
    I just want you to remember, I’m not the same
    Just needed a little time
    To get you off my mind
    And now I’m finally in a better place

    If you could see me now
    that my heart is blooming
    That I got out
    And I don’t wanna don’t lose this
    Now if I saw you in the crowd
    I wouldn’t run into your arms
    I wouldn’t reminisce ’bout us
    and ’bout the better days
    If I would see you now
    I hope you’d feel the same

    Oh remember, remember
    Oh remember, remember me this way
    Oh remember, remember
    Oh remember, remember me this way
    Oh remember, remember
    Oh remember, remember me this way
    Oh remember, remember
    Oh remember, remember me this way

    If you could see me now
    that my heart is blooming
    That I got out
    And I don’t wanna don’t lose this
    Now if I saw you in the crowd
    I wouldn’t run into your arms
    I wouldn’t reminisce ’bout us
    and ’bout the better days
    If you could see me now
    More than just ok
  • The war is over
    So go easy on me
    We can take it slow now
    It’s been raining for weeks
    Finally washed away all our debris
    Chilled us to the bone but left us clean

    So we can drop like stone
    Or we can take this home
    Or we can shut up and just let it be
    We don’t need whispers of gold
    Buried and rusting alone
    You can cry away the lonely with me

    I am gonna be there til you’re safe
    Don’t lose faith
    We will come crashing down like waves
    Let’s take it day by day
    I know we’ll say goodbye a thousand time
    But maybe we’ll go maybe we’ll stay

    The war is over
    Don’t try to push me away
    Cos I don’t own you
    Don’t go looking for chains
    We were left out in the cold for too long
    Frozen to the bone, now finally free

    So we can drop like stone
    Or we can take this home
    Or we can shut up and just let it be
    We don’t need whispers of gold
    Buried and rusting alone
    You can cry away the lonely with me

    I am gonna be there til you’re safe
    Don’t lose faith
    We will come crashing down like waves
    Let’s take it day by day
    I know we’ll say goodbye a thousand time
    But maybe we’ll go maybe we’ll stay

    Don’t be scared
    Don’t be scared my dear
    Don’t be scared
    Cos there ain’t nothing to fear
    Don’t be scared
    Don’t be scared my dear
    Don’t be scared
    Cos there ain’t nothing to fear

    So we can drop like stone
    Or we can take this home
    Or we can shut up and just let it be
    We don’t need whispers of gold
    Buried and rusting alone
    You can cry away the lonely with me

    I am gonna be there til you’re safe
    Don’t lose faith
    We will come crashing down like waves
    Let’s take it day by day
    I know we’ll say goodbye a thousand time
    But maybe we’ll go maybe we’ll stay
  • It’s snowing in the desert
    The Ocean is on fire
    The Moon’s up in the daytime
    And the Sun’s out at night

    People are walking backwards
    Questions used to be answers
    When everything’s all wrong

    I’m alright now
    I’m alright now

    Change is a beautiful thing
    It’s a beautiful thing
    But never when it’s happening
    But I’m alright now

    It’s never just a clean cut
    The knife can be so dull
    The healing’s not so pretty
    But the lesson’s worth it all

    I got to the edge but I didn’t jump
    I found out what I was made of
    Made of something strong

    So
    I’m alright now
    I’m alright now

    Change is a beautiful thing
    It’s a beautiful thing
    But never when it’s happening
    But I’m alright now
    I’m alright now
    I’m alright now

    I’m alright now
    I’m alright
    I’m alright
    I’m alright
    I’m alright

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Bio

Singer, songwriter, and multi-instrumentalist Lxandra shares her incredible debut album ‘Careful What I Dream of’. Lxandra has brought her fantasy world to life with soft piano, ethereal vocals, and unfiltered lyrics wrapped in swaths of technicolor production, vibrant textures, and a wondrous timeless presentation.
 
“Fantasy can often explain things we experience as humans. When I was a kid, I used to tell stories. My parents would write them down for me in a little book. They always began, ‘Once upon a time, there was a little girl living in the woods’. It was a way to somehow protect myself from the world by half-living in my own space. I’ve created for as long as I can remember.”Lxandra shared.
                                                                      
Lxandra grew up on a tiny island called Suomenlinna in Finland, which certainly encouraged creation. One of only 800 residents, art surrounded Lxandra. She spent countless hours immersed in the “dark children’s stories” of Hans Christian Andersen as well as Moomins by Tove Jansson. Her father played jazz bass and composed for films and documentaries. On a daily basis, she either took the ferry or her parents’ boat to Helsinki for school. “I can drive a boat, but I can’t drive a car ,” the songstress laughs. Developing a diverse palette, she devoured the soundtracks to Moulin Rouge and Pirates of the Caribbean in addition to music from Nightwish and more. Initially, she wanted to act before penning her first song at 15-years-old and even performing it at school.“When I wrote songs, it felt like the purest method to get out those stories and feelings. It was the exact right way for me to express myself.” She admits, and she has never looked back.                                    
 
Lxandra followed this calling to Berlin in 2015. Working with producer Perttu Kurttila, she crafted her first single “Flicker,” which currently sits at over 1.4 million Spotify streams. It paved the way for her 2019 EP, Another Lesson Learned. The six-track project spawned a series of fan favorites, including “Dig Deep” and “Swimming Pools”. Meanwhile, it attracted widespread acclaim from Atwood Magazine, CLASH Magazine , Baeble Music, and Wonderland Magazine who wrote, “Finland’s Lxandra is now carving out her own space in the industry.                      
“I finally know exactly how I want to sound,” she goes on. “I feel way more confident about my vision and what I want to do. All of these songs fit in the same universe. They have a certain roughness and vintage vibes. Most of it is piano-led, because it’s natural for me. It’s the way I write. The album is exactly the kind of music I want to make.”
The first single and album favourite “Glide” slips from ghostly intonation into a gorgeous chant backed by a prominent beat. Co-written in Los Angeles alongside Tommy English [Kacey Musgraves, K.Flay], it bottles “the energy of a sunset drive. ”
“Yet, it still has a dark side,” she grins. “It’s about how you have to go with the flow, even if you know something isn’t right. You just need to see where life takes you. Of course, you don’t want to stay in a situation that isn’t good for you, but you may need to follow it to the end. I’m fully happy with the vibe.”                                                          
The vibe carries through the title track “Careful What I Dream Of.” Its chorus affirmation concerns “wanting to stay in your dream, because you’re afraid to face reality.”
Then, there’s “Sabotage.” Keys resound as her voice takes flight with a question, “Is it love or sabotage? “It’s about the fine line between love and hate,” she elaborates.  Known for her captivating live performances, Lxandra ”shared a stunning Mahogany session of Sabotage.
“The whole record is pretty much about a toxic relationship and learning to love yourself through it.”                          
The record moves between moments of pop bliss and pensive alternative soul. Hinging on a syncopated groove and lush acoustic strumming, “Rabbit” builds towards a neon synth bridge and a bendy guitar solo as she assures, “It’s okay, it’s just a bad habit .” 
The evocative “Blooming” offers a light at the end of the tunnel, whilst everything culminates on the cinematic “Alright Now.” Over soft keys, she sets the scene, “It’s snowing in the desert, the ocean is on fire, the moon’s out in the daytime, and sun’s out at night... people are walking backwards, questions used to be answered.” This conclusion delivers a final peaceful exhale.                      
By crafting a sonic fairytale, Lxandra makes reality a little more wonderful. “In general, I want people to feel. Maybe, it gives them strength or makes them feel better. Maybe, they know there’s someone else who feels the same way. Music is a very personal and private experience for me. I’m grateful to share it.”

See below for the track list.  

Careful What I Dream Of
1. March
2. Glide
3. Sideways
4. Other People
5. Hammer
6. Who
7. Sabotage
8. Drained
9. Careful What I Dream Of
10. Rabbit
11. Solid Ground
12. Believe
13. Blooming
14. Maybe We’ll Go, Maybe We’ll Stay
15. Alright Now